Monday, March 31st, 2003
"If you can dream it, you can do it." - from a sign outside my dorm room door

If I had written this entry a couple of hours ago, it would probably be filled with colorful expletives about my spring quarter experience so far. But I've been assuaged with CD downloading and pop-tarts, so now I'm feeling better. :D I won't go into it, but for the curious, I got a parking ticket, the room that my first class was supposed to be in was empty, and it took me an hour to find a building that was fifteen minutes away. Sigh.
I downloaded six of Ayumi's albums and singles: Nothing From Nothing, Duty, Ayu-mi-x IV + Selection Acoustic Orchestra Version, Ayu-mi-x III Acoustic Orchestra Version, the Endless Sorrow single, and the Dearest single. Plus I also got Björk's Homogenic, Cat Power's We Are Free, Cibo Matto's Stereotype A, and John Digweed's Global Underground: Hong Kong. Mwahaha. :::hides from the downloading popo:::
Margaret Cho is coming to town April 27th! I really want to go...I just have to get my lazy ass down to the student ticketmaster and get a ticket. Tomorrow.
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Thursday, March 27th, 2003
"Hope is the denial of reality." - Margaret Weis

I was thinking about my greatest sports moment as I was going through my closet and packing up for the trip tomorrow, and saw the shirt that commemorates it. :D When I was 12, I was in the Championships for the 100 IM in swimming, and I was in lane 7. That basically means I was expected to finish fifth. And I actually won! I remember the last stretch and how I could see those girls in the middle of the pool when I breathed. It was a total rush to get 1st place. Plus they gave me a t-shirt that said I was the 1st place winner. So I have something to remember it by and can wear it if I need a boost. And nothing has really matched up to that moment. I remember making this awesome shot in my last tennis game around October of 2001, but that first place moment was the big thing. I usually place under what I'm expected to, so to rise above the competition in such a big meet was something I've never forgotten.
Speaking of the trip tomorrow, I'm going to be driving for twelve hours. XP Oh well, at least I'm armed with plenty of CDs. Plus, I have to get ready for school and everything next quarter, so I might not be blogging for a while.
This country and this war have gotten out of control. :::hits Bush over the head with a stick::: That'll teach you. XD
&02:55PM EST

Wednesday, March 26th, 2003
"It's still early morning. We could go down to the harbour and jump between the boats and see the sun come up." - Björk, "There's More to Life Than This"

Here's a list of CD's that I've been wanting lately:
- Cat Power's You Are Free - I've heard nothing but good things about this CD. It was given great reviews in Rolling Stone and at the All Music Guide, plus I like her musical style.
- John Digweed's Global Underground: Hong Kong - I've never heard anything by this guy, but this is supposed to be a great album and I'm always on the lookout for a good techno album.
- David Cross' Shut Up You Fucking Baby! - It's half of Mr. Show, and I've heard that this is one of the best comedy albums to come out in a long time. Now if only Dave Attell would release a comedy album...
- Björk's Homogenic - Björk + darkness + a Japanese-inspired cover. 'Nuff said.
- The Bad Plus' These are the Vistas - I love modern jazz and this album "doesn't disappoint", according to the reviewer. Plus, I love that cover. :D
- Ayumi Hamasaki's Ballads - Far be it from me to leave Ayu's latest release off of this list. And everyone is talking about this cover and how she's kissing herself. She said it came from "her need to console herself and her wish to cure her past self." Hehe...well, sex sells.
&06:44AM EST

Monday, March 24th, 2003
"Nobody really cares if you're miserable, so you might as well be happy." - Cynthia Nelms

I swear, searching for ROMs and emulators is one of the most frustrating things ever. I was trying to find a Pocket Fighter ROM, and I went through tons of websites that either (a) said they had it, but it was a broken link, (b) were in another language, or (c) were innavigable(I think that's the right word). I didn't actually get (d) had mad porn, but my friend that tried to help me find it did. XD I never got a working ROM for that game, but I did find one for The King of Fighters '98. So at least I have something to show for three hours of searching and three hours of downloading. ^^;;
Et plus, si vous voulez savoir, j'ai décidé que j'irai á l'université la quart prochaine. n'ai pas vraiment décidé mère m'y envoyera si je suis prête ou pas. Le verité est que je lui dit que je pense que je ne suis pas prête, et elle a devenue lune. Je ne vais pas parler de détails, mais elle est terrible. Si je deviendrai plus triste, si je suis pas prête, si je me suiciderai...n'importe. Il faut être la petite bonne fille qui va á l'université. Personne ne comprend (ou ne veux comprendre) que je suis pas prête, et ça va me tuer.
So I felt like writing in French. Nyah. Translate if you must. XD
EDIT: I got Pocket Fighter! :D
&12:50PM EST

Friday, March 21st, 2003
"In war, there is no happy ending." - Jon Stewart

Here's this week's Friday Five:

1. If you had the chance to meet someone you've never met, from the past or present, who would it be? I'd really like to meet Dave Attell, especially if they're taping Insomniac. :D
2. If you had to live in a different century, past or future, which would it be? A really early one, back when the first humans lived. I think it would be really interesting to live so close to the earth.
3. If you had to move anywhere else on Earth, where would it be? JAPAN!!! Shit, no question.
4. If you had to be a fictional character, who would it be? Ooh, good question. I'll say Himillsy Dodd from Chip Kidd's The Cheese Monkeys.
5. If you had to live with having someone else's face as your own for the rest of your life, whose would it be? Hmm...some model's...ooh, no! Zhang Ziyi's! She's so incredibly gorgeous.

I got my Photoshop back! :::does a little dance::: I haven't been able to really design in a while, so hopefully I'll have some better layouts up on my webpages soon. I have one for the main site that's just about done, so that should be up within an hour.
By the way, I just came across the portfolio of a designer named Gareth Bayliss. Check it out - it's badass. It was's site of the week, so you know it's good.
&02:01AM EST

Wednesday, March 19th, 2003
"A pledge is just another way of saying you're somebody's bitch." - Earl from MTV's Fraternity Life

LMAO. That's so true. Anyway, everybody's been into making these doll things lately. So I made a bunch of them myself.

Heehee...they're so cute! I'm not really sure which one I like the most, although I'm kind of partial to that fourth one...that skirt's really pretty...
By the way, with all this talk of war coming up, I'd just like to say that Bush is an ass monkey. He's fabricating evidence, killing thousands of innocent American and Iraqi citizens, and discrediting the foreign countries (e.g. France) that have all too legitimate greivances, all for the purpose of his re-election campaign. He's completely ignored the people (which, if you insist on quoting the founding fathers, the government is supposed to be for and by in the first place) and gone on with a pointless war that he's obviously been planning on doing for a long time. At this point, I'm more afraid of what Bush is planning on doing to the American people than Saddam. I'd rather get rid of Bush. A message to all foreigners reading this: please don't judge us by our leader. Some of us are still reasonable human beings.
&02:13PM EST

Tuesday, March 18th, 2003
"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return." - Moulin Rouge

I sort of ran away for the weekend. I decided during the night very early Saturday morning that I was going to go to Myrtle Beach for a while. No particular reason. So I went for the weekend, and it was boring for the most part. I sat on the beach, read Balzac, did stream of consciousness writing, listened to the late night/early morning disturbances outside of the Super 8, and watched some good TV. It was pretty boring and normal and not what I wanted at all. So when I was going home in the wee hours of Monday morning, I was pissed off for having such a terrible and typical weekend despite the change of scenery. That, ironically, is when the most interesting thing not only of the weekend, but this year happened to me.
These two guys pulled up by my car on the street and were flirting with me, so I took their invitation to stop by the side of the road to "talk". Well, the driver ("Blake" I think his name was) ended up kissing and fingering me in the back of my car. Not an atypical event at Myrtle Beach, of course, haha. But what I doubt Mr. No Name realized was that he gave me my first kiss. LMAO. I just sort of imitated what I'd seen on TV, and it was really nice. :D "Blake" was really cute and he smelled good. I'm still in the process of overanalyzing the event.
&01:20AM EST

Thursday, March 13th, 2003
"Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself." - Harvey Fierstein

I wrote a poem sometime last month about regret, and I'm putting it up here, since that seems to be a recurring theme in my life lately:

"Some Die Eloquent"
My actions were shameful.
I should have just kept standing still.
To call out to you for help
I sacrificed my precious pride.
But you just left me for dead.

Some die eloquent,
but love made a fool of me.
I wanted to go peacefully
but your eyes wouldn't let me.

Yeah, that's me
screaming your name on the karaoke stage.
I bet you never thought
I could get so low.
Fear makes me do crazy things.

Some die eloquent,
but love made a fool of me.
I wanted to go peacefully
but your eyes wouldn't let me.

By the way, this article on weblogs is pretty good. It talks about the lack of content on weblogs. Lately, I've been trying to keep this log as free of personal anecdotes as possible, though I've been guilty of slipping into a boring trend of entries.
&03:50AM EST

Monday, March 10th, 2003
"Never drink alone, that's what they say. But you know what, if you drink enough, you will never be alone." - Dave Attell

Dave Attell's becoming one of my favorite comedians. I love his show Insomniac on Comedy Central, and I've been listening to an MP3 of his Comedy Central Presents routine on repeat.
I had the best afternoon with my father this weekend. I had to sleep in his office for a little while because he had some work to do, but that was fine. We went to Coffee Underground and had a nice talk over Turtle Mochas. My father's really smart, and though his good moods are few and far between (he has a really stressful job), he has a lot to say when he does have that good mood. Then I showed him my favorite book store by the café and bought a book by Balzac for $3. My father showed me a book talking about a big football game that he once went to. Hopefully we'll be doing this again next weekend.
&10:16AM EST

Tuesday, March 4th, 2003
"A false life is equal to death. Be your true self." - Strider Hiryuu, Marvel vs. Capcom

A video game quote's the best I can do after all this time? Still, I thought it was good, and Strider Hiryuu rocks the casbah.
Sorry for the long period between entries. It's weird, when I start to dislike my layouts, I dislike them to the point where I don't want to blog anymore. I hope you like the new one - I experiment with typography a lot, and that's where I get the inspiration for a good deal of my layouts. It's grungy, which is kind of outdated, but eh. I like it, so :P.
I've been reading Virginia Woolf's The Voyage Out for about a week and a half now, and I really like it. Contrary to what you may be thinking, I didn't decide to read it because of The Hours, but rather a blog entry from Ziggy's page:
We're starting to read Mrs. Dalloway for AP English class. I read Virginia Woolf's To The Lighthouse over the summer, and though the writing went completely over my head at times, at other points I enjoyed it. I'm actually looking forward to this one, especially since it's being taught by Dr. Wheeler, the biggest Virginia Woolf fanatic known to mankind. I quote her: "No, I haven't read all of Virginia Woolf's books, I've still got two remaining. I own copies of both of them, but it's just that... you know, if I've read everything she's written, what's there to look forward to in life? I must figure out when I'll die so I'll read them right beforehand." Now that's impressive devotion.
&02:08PM EST

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