Thursday, April 24th, 2003

There's good news and bad news concerning school. The good news: my Math midterm went really well. The only problem I didn't answer completely was the last one, because my calculator was being weird. Other than that, I think I got everything right. The bad news: I can't drop French like I was planning. It turns out that it would put me below the number of credit hours needed for full-time status meaning I (a) couldn't live in the dorms anymore, (b) couldn't keep my scholarship, and (c) would have to pay more for insurance. So I'm going to be doing some mad catching up this weekend. It's going to totally suck.
Right now I'm waiting for the CVS to open because I woke up at 4AM with a wicked stomachache. Meh. :::cries:::
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Tuesday, April 22nd, 2003

Wow, three entries in one day...that's very uncharacteristic of me. I barely get three entries up in a week. Anyway, my French teacher called me out in front of a bunch of people for not being in class. I was sort of pissed about that - I wish she would've just said something after class instead of embarrassing me in front of the class. I was going to try and catch up, even though it would be really hard, but from now on I'm going to be known as "the girl who got called out" and plus, it's not like I really need the class. So I guess that means I'm dropping my French major. I'll just study it on my own this summer, since I won't have anything else to do. I know enough to be able to teach myself things. I don't want to forget the language after almost six years of study. Plus, I want to to go to France again in the future. Screw university.
Here's the Tuesday This or That
1. Yummier: Chocolate ice cream or strawberry cheesecake? Even though I have a weakness for chocolate, I have a bigger weakness for cheesecake, so I'm going to have to go with the latter. :D
2. Better to watch on TV: Movies or sports? Unless it's tennis, movies.
3. A better web browser: MSIE or Netscape (or tell us your own favorite!) OMG, MSIE. Anyone who puts Netscape needs to get their head checked.
4. A better way to travel: Automobile or bus/train? Automobile, because I can sing in the car. Sometimes I drive around town just to be able to sing as loud as I want (at night, of course).
5. Your preferred camera: Digital or film? I've never used a digital camera before and don't really have any plans to get one, so I'm going to have to go with film.
6. A Cooler Vehicle: Motorcycle or sports car? I think a sports car is cooler, but since I'm a dork, I'd rather have the motorcycle. I've always wanted one, actually, even though my family thinks I'm crazy for thinking that.
7. More fun: Video games or board games? Wow, that's a tough one...I play both of them a lot. I'll go with board games, just because I have fond memories of playing Scrabble with my relatives and family during summers at the beach.
8. Sexier: A perfect body or an intelligent mind? Perfect body. It's unfortunate, but being beautiful has become a more important "virtue" than intelligence.
9. A stinkier smell: Skunk or gasoline (petrol)? Skunk, because I actually like the smell of gasoline.
10. Thought-provoking question of the week: What is more important to you: making a ton of money and being at the top of your field, or finding your soulmate and living a comfortable but not wealthy life? I wouldn't want either...I don't like having too much money but I also wouldn't want a soulmate(that involves a commitment to people that I'm not willing to have). I'll choose the money, because I could always do something good with it.
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Yeah, you guys know you like my sexy new layout. This one is actually much faster loading than the last one. Featuring an illustration from Arina Tanemura's Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne and lyrics from Fiona Apple's song "The Way Things Are".
It's way too fucking late. I'm never going to be able to get up tomorrow.
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Yay, fun survey time. I got it from here, which got it from a guy named John who got it from a person named Sahki. Now I don't know if this is what you want to be, or what you think it would be - so I did a combination.
If I were a tree, I would be: a cherry blossom tree, because I love the pink flowers and because they're so Japanese.
If I were a bird, I would be a: raven, because I bring darkness to everything.
If I were a machine, I would be a: portable CD player.
If I were a tool, I would be: broken.
If I were a fruit, I would be: a strawberry. They're just cute.
If I were a vegetable, I would be: a potato. Boring, but liked by everybody.
If I were a flower plant, I would be: a white rose, for Devin.
If I were a food/drink, I would be: water.
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: an autumn day just before the rain.
If I were a stone, I would be: amethyst.
If I were a mythical creature, I would be: a little water sprite or something.
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: a violin. They're such pretty instruments.
If I were a profession, I would be: FBI surveillance.
If I were an animal, I would be: a lazy, fat cat.
If I were a color, I would be: Gray. It's my favorite color, and it goes with everything.
If I were a scent, I would be: freshly washed clothes.
If I were an emotion, I would be: Lost. The emotional kind of lost, not physical.
If I were a sound, I would be: a whisper.
If I were an Element, I would be: Water. I've always loved it.
If I were a car, I would be: old but still running great (like my A-chan!)
If I were a song, I would be: "Still Alone" by Ayumi Hamasaki.
If I were a movie, I would be: Wow, I don't know. No movies really remind me of myself or anything that I'd want to be...or no! Amélie, because of its artistry.
If I were a place, I would be: the beach.
If I were a material, I would be: silk. Just because it feels good.
If I were a taste, I would be: salt.
If I were a word, I would be: a.
If I were an object, I would be: a journal.
If I were a body part I would be: the left ear.
If I were a facial expression I would be: a spiritually and emotionally exhausted one.
If I were a subject in school I would be: creative writing.
If I were a planet I would be: I'd like to be Venus, but I'd probably be Pluto.
If I were a shape I would be: a straight line.
If I were a texture I would be: smooth, cold metal.
If I were a number I would be: 800.
If I were a month I would be: October. It's my birthday month, and the weather's perfect around that time.
If I were a day of the week I would be: Sunday. Lonely and full of anxious anticipation.
If I were a time of day I would be: Night.
If I were a direction I would be: Forward.
If I were a piece of furniture I would be a: stool.
If I were a sin I would be: pride.
If I were a historical figure I would be: Nietsche. There's no way that's spelled right.
If I were a liquid I would be: Water.
If I were a method of death I would be: death from cancer.
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Sunday, April 20th, 2003

Hehe, no quote today. Even though I'm still inspired by quotes, I'm just going to keep them off the posts unless I come across it in the course of my day (instead of searching for them on like I've been doing). Just so ya know.
Well, I spent my Easter morning doing homework and eating Milky Way eggs. It was kind of sad because everyone else was with their families and stuff and I was the only one in the dorm. But my mother and little sister Shannon were on a nine and a half hour drive, so I can't complain. XD
By the way, I don't know if you guys have ever heard of this book before. It's called Fruits. It's a book filled solely with pictures of Japanese street fashion. It was published in 2001. Here's a sample: Akane. It's one of the less extreme pictures - most of them are wild and colorful, with dyed hair and cartoonish outfits. If you have an interest in Japan or fashion, you should pick it up.
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Wednesday, April 16th, 2003
" some point something must have come from nothing..." - Jostein Gaarder, Sophie's World

I read that in Sophie's World last night, and it's been bothering me ever since. I can't believe I never thought of that before. If we go on the theory that God created the world out of nothing, it would make sense, except that it doesn't explain where He came from. (Even if I'm an atheist, it's still a respectful thing to do to capitalize "he", right?) If we look at it from a scientific point of view, we see that beings evolved from other beings, beginning with the simplest of organisms. So then where did they come from? Where did even the dust and earth we walk on come from? Nothing can be created from nothing. But nothing can have always existed. These conflicting statements are both very credible to me. So which is right?
On another note, I don't understand the deal with private online journals. Whatever happened to a well-hidden paper journal? I keep my own paper journal that I write in daily, and talk about the things nobody cares about, like what I ate for lunch and how late I slept. If there's no hiding it from your nosy parent/sibling, okay. But what's the point of putting your innermost thoughts and secrets on a computer? A paper journal is a much more personal, not to mention more portable, way of recording your thoughts. It's much easier to carry around a small notebook and a pen than a laptop. Then people link to their journal, and give out the password or URL to anyone who asks. That's not a big step up from public. Maybe I'm just missing something...the way I see it, the Internet is a public forum, and a paper journal is private. Maybe someone can explain it to me? Haha, I haven't ranted in a while. Feels good. XD
I just burned a bunch of CD's. In alphabetical order: Chemical Brothers' Dig Your Own Hole, John Digweed's Global Underground: Hong Kong, Ladytron's 604, Aimee Mann's Whatever, and Hikaru Utada's Deep River. Ooh, another rant. I burn the majority of my CD's, because I'm cheap. That's my only reason. I find that I have justification anyway, though. The only CD's I don't burn are ones I can't find online. I figure, if the artist is not well-known enough to have their CD available somewhere online, they're probably he or she will benefit the most from somebody buying their CD. Also, the producers and label get most of the profits from an album - the artist gets only a small portion of the profit and gets his or her money from touring. Labels shouldn't be rewarded for their greed. Also, I get sick of rich artists flaunting around their money, showing off their mansions on MTV Cribs and saying they can do whatever they want. Once again, I'm just saying this to make myself feel better for being such a cheapass. But it's true!
My mom and little sister are coming for five days! Yay! I get to eat at restaurants again!
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"I have never found a companion that was so companionable as solitude. We are for the most part more lonely when we go abroad among men than when we stay in our chambers. A man thinking or working is always alone, let him be where he will." - Henry David Thoreau

Ah, damn, so true. People: can't live with 'em, can't live without 'em. Mental Note: Read Walden.
I bought Gaarder's Sophie's World today. They stopped making it mandatory reading for our high school philosophy class the year I took it, and even though everyone I talked to hated it, I decided to give it a chance. I'm only halfway through Balzac's Lost Illusions, though...I really like it, but it's taking me too long to read it.
This guy on the street came up to me and the first thing he asked me was, "Are you mean or are you nice?" Of course, nice! XD Too nice, really, as evidence by what happened next. He's in this program with our university where he's trying to win a contest by selling magazines to people on the street. He was a nice guy...I ended up buying two for myself(W and Bazaar) and two for the hospital. Set me back $100. Hehe...oh well, the plus side of it is that because I bought so much I'll be able to go to Acapulco during the Summer for another $100, or something like that. I'll probably go...the guy was all like, "Yeah, go with me!" so I'll think about it, lol. I can't believe I'm considering going to Acapulco with a guy I met off the street. ^^;;
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Friday, April 11th, 2003
"I can't be born again, but I can change as I go on." - Fruits Basket, opening song.

I may have done that quote before, but I don't feel like going through the entries and seeing if I have. Besides, it's cute enough to put up twice. XD Et maintenant, the Friday Five:
1. What was the first band you saw in concert? The Backstreet Boys. :::runs and hides::: Ahh, I'm so ashamed! But, if it matters, it was not my choice. Then again, the second artist I saw in concert was Ricky Martin, and that was by choice. But I know this opinion will not be shared by many, but he has some beautiful songs. "Be Careful" and "I Count the Minutes" come to mind. And he's a sexy beast.
2. Who is your favorite artist/band now? Ayumi Hamasaki! I have about twenty of her albums, it's insane.
3. What's your favorite song? Mariah Carey's "Prisoner". It's been my favorite song since elementary school, actually. LOL.
4. If you could play any instrument, what would it be? Wow...I've always wanted to play an instrument. But who hasn't? Piano's second, but the one I'd like to learn the most would be the acoustic guitar.
5. If you could meet any musical icon (past or present), who would it be and why? Moby. He just seems like a cool guy.
By the way, I was talking in the last entry about how my site was shut down for a while yesterday, but it turns out it's been shut down a lot. Like, ten times. So what does that mean? It means that I've moved my MP3 downloading site, Spin, to another URL. There's also a new layout, so go check it out here.
&11:03PM EST

"There's no shortcut to any place worth getting to." - Unknown

I read the lyrics to Ayumi Hamasaki's song "Two of Us" (English translation and romaji available here), and was inspired to write a little comic with it. I've only done the first page of two, but who knows when I'll get to the second one? So here is the first page. Frame One: It's not that I loved you because I wanted you to love me back. Frame Two: Even though I knew, even though I slept alone... Frame Three: ...without forgetting, still somewhere I was expecting them tomorrow. (Her left arm is longer than her looks very ungainly.) Frame Four: I understand. (End of first page.) For the second page I was going to put the sentence: "Nowhere can I expect anything." I've never actually heard the song before, was only released on the Depend on You single, which I don't own, and it's hard to find online. Bleh.
My site was down for a while yesterday. Tripod said my hourly bandwidth usage was exceeded. Hehe...probably from the two MP3's I have up...that one at Canary's pretty big.
I've been visiting this website called The Non-Uglies Community where you post your pictures on there and try to get a stamp of approval saying you're "beautiful" from the members, and if you are then you get to judge the other people posting pictures. Honestly, I skipped breakfast because of it. Hehe...if I ever get curious enough to post my pictures on that website, just...smack me or something.
I've been working on some new layouts for this website and Spin - I know the present ones have been up there for a while. Both of them should be up in a week's time or so, but I'm going to be gone for the weekend, so I can't do anything then.
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Saturday, April 5th, 2003
"If you see someone dressed to kill, does that make you an accessory?" - Kenneth Cole

That quote was off an ad in Vogue. I thought it was clever. :::shrugs:::
Bad experience yesterday. I was reading Balzac(a French author, for future reference) while eating dinner, and this guy in his thirties came over and started talking to me. He had seen the book and was asking if I knew French. It was a nice conversation - we talked in French for a little while, and he told me about how he was trying to get a teaching position at my university in the French department. When I told him I had to leave(this was legitimate - I had planned to watch a movie with my friend), he insisted that he give me a ride there. I was not into that, but he insisted, and he had been really nice. But when we got in the car he started totally hitting on me. I know I said that I liked older men, but this guy was just creepy, and he's fucking trying to get a job here. What's he doing trying to get involved with a student? He kept making me promise that I would get in touch with him and I said I would just to get him off my back. But at least he doesn't know where I live or have any of my contact information. He just better not show up at the Union anymore. Ick. :::shudders:::
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Thursday, April 3rd, 2003
"Why deny the necessity of remembering?" - The girl, Hiroshima mon amour

For everybody that comes here from Google typing "Ayumi Hamasaki", my Ayumi website is here. Sheesh. XD
The class thing is going well. I have quite a cute Astronomy teacher. Mmm...lmao. I have this thing for older guys, I can't help it! Like, way older. I think the biggest age difference between me and a guy I had a crush on was 27 years. Ahem...yeah. It's a good thing, though - it gets me going to class. We watched this good movie in French, too. It's called Hiroshima, mon amour. Very artsy. There was also some Japanese in there, too. I was like, yeah! I know that shit!
I hate to admit this, but I've honestly stopped caring about the war. It's bad to feel that way half a month after it starts, but I'm sick of hearing about it. Then again, I got sick of hearing about September 11th just about the same day it occured. I just get so sick of society sometimes. Let them destroy themselves...
Have you guys ever used the Dialectizer? It's's how they translated part of my blog into Redneck: Daisy Cho is a-comin' t'town April 27th! Fry mah hide! ah pow'ful be hankerin' t'go...ah jest hafta git mah lazy as a houn'dog ass down t'th' student ticketmaster an' git a ticket. T'morry. Daisy Cho? WTF? LOL.
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